The Day

4:oo AM wake up
tired
4: 3o AM waiting
anxious
5:1o AM "take care of the family"
concern, confidence
7:oo AM PRE-OP
liberation
7:3o AM breakfast
hesitant
9:oo AM operation...waiting
praying
10:oo AM THE MACHINE...waiting...DEATH?
reading
11:oo AM waiting...
worrying, praying, wondering?
12:3o PM bovine valve.
reading
12:45 PM lunch
delight
1:3o PM waiting...
reading
2:oo PM ICU
hot, cramped, distress
2:3o PM visit
surprise, anxiety
2:4o PM tubes, machines, unable to talk...waiting
apprehension
4:oo PM massive stroke!?...waiting
SADNESS, SADNESS, SADNESS
5:oo PM waiting
numb
6:3o PM fancy dinner
not hungry, sick
7:15 PM ICU...waiting
numb
8:3o PM tired
cold and confused
9:oo PM “out of the woods"
pray
9:15 PM sleep
tired